mnmk (:more tomorrow, ♥ ♥ ♥
" I'll keep my feelings deep inside, for another time. "
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
chasing pavements, even if it leads nowhere.
I didn't want to go home today,
i do not know why,
I'm always sad about being stranded and for once
i didn't mind being lost.
I stayed at school for awhile, didn't do much
but it was exactly what i intended to do, strange isnt it.
Especially since i'll have to stay @ skoos tmm anywaysssss,
I really do complicate my life !! ,But i really do think i wouldn't have it any other way :).
Seriously, whenever i hear " Disturbia " it makes me want to dance like those beasts in the music vids. HAHA.
I hate spending my time in the student store, just cause i waste all of my dollars!
Michael Matias told me about the $1.25 chinese food and i couldnt even get any cause i spent all my $$$ on gatorade, chips, grandma cookies, and k bar oh sheeeesh ! :]
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
^ HAHAHAHA <3333 laaavs my life :)
Random Things from today :
+ i tied my hair crooked and ended up with a side ponytail which made my head uneven
+ Me and anthony decided that whenever i wear floral he'll wear plaid[vice versaaaa]
+ the creeper note tyson let me read in ceramics was HILARIOUSSSS!
" I think we should get together like bf/gf" oh my gaaah so funny.
+ i lost my binder :(, im hoping itll come back soon.
+ I think i eat faster nowadays cause i seem to lose my appetite at random moments from unexpected events.
+"Its true that when you meet the love of your life time stops, but what they don't tell you, is that it goes extra fast afterward to catch up."
+ I want to be someones imaginary girl !
+ I had a weird dream last night, which created more questions then answers.
+ i really hate lockdowns, they're so annoying !! they dont even really keep the crazy's out.
+ I could hear the fireworks from disneyland from my house, seriously without the actual seeing of the fireworks, the sounds are just plain annoyinggg!
+ today my eye was soooo itchy in english omg, thank goodness that game i played with jose distracted me or else i'd be wearing an eyepatch right now. Kind of attractice actually :).
+ I've been listening to the same songs over and over, and each time its something different.
+ Miss ya, times like these.
" all the things i feel i need to say i cant explain them in any other way
and if i tell the world the things i think i'll never say enough cause it was not said to you."
Sunday, March 29, 2009
irony of love
The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. A piece of advice: Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love.
*"hands down, I'm too proud for love,
for with eyes closed, its you i'm thinking of,
but how we get from A to B it can't be up to me."
*"hands down, I'm too proud for love,
for with eyes closed, its you i'm thinking of,
but how we get from A to B it can't be up to me."
Friday, March 27, 2009
goodbye blues
Spring Fest was todayyy ! it wasn't as great as great as fall fest :(. I'm glad i started talking to Tyson, he is so well connected like today with the wendys hamburger, and strawberry milkshake for micha weeeeeeeees exclusive :). Anyways so i missed Kevin today, right guys ? hes the life of the ceramic party, and let me tell ya only a pinata could've filled the void in my heart !!! hehehe. :) <3333>oh kevins turtle... :)
^^^ lolssss!, IZZZZYYY G !
They say you learn something new everyday, I wonder what i learned today. Well whatever it is, whatever i learned it wasn't what i had hoped to know.
For the longest time i thought i was the question mark, turns out you were the mysterious one.
Tough week,
long week,
thats all i remember from the past 5 days,
thats all i remember from the past 5 days,
is that it was tough, and it was long.
BUT, Today was sooooooooo greaaaaaaaaaaat!
UNFORTUNATELY it wasn't with anthony & michelle cause that stupid crab lady, is still on lock downnn , T.I. just got 1 year, i wonder how much longer michelles gonna be >:0.
Instead, it was with my cousin and since she drives, and has $$$$$ she took me places HAHA.
@ first it was just to drive me home from LQ since once again, nina is standed and too paranoid to walk cause of creepy creepers creepin out in the world :(. Luckily, thanks to my cousins hunger, we went to the yummiest place in yumville, boiling craaaaaaaaab! :D. Oh my gaaah its never been spicier i was on the verge of tears HAHA, i had to stop eating cause i didn't want to look like a big baby :(, how embarassing... Anyways like a fool my cousin orderd crawfish instead of shrimp !!!! I alwaaaaaaaaays eat shrimp instead of crawfish, because its more delcioous but mostly because shrimps look cuter then crawfish heh heh heh :)....seriously.
VS .
Hope to have energy for ND's dinner party tmmmm lets see who i meeeeeeet, cutiessss plxxxx! Don't worry, I'll blog bout itsssss :)
Oh yeah funny thing happend, i was looking at M's myspace pics and i told her that guy in the black was cute. She responds by saying
WELL, I had the biggest food coma, but i swear half of it was due to all the water i had o drink from the spices -_____-. After that, we got yogurt which i've been craving since foreverrr !, and she made me help her organize her room which lucky for me, she ended up giving me a bunch of stuff >:]. After that it was 10 @ night, and guess where we go....
thats right.. wall to the mart ! i was soooooo happy, i dont even know why, i guess its my love for franchises ahahah :[]
Lastly, a trip to tasteas, which i was surprised to see a whole bunch of people up in that shizzzzzzz, i got this suave vanilla moca thing idk, i dont drink tasteas but my cousin got it for me, and it was IIGHTSSSSSSS., i tihnk the caffine made me crazy cause i was dancing to lady gaga alllll the way home, i liked today, today made me tired, but for once, in a good way :).
Hope to have energy for ND's dinner party tmmmm lets see who i meeeeeeet, cutiessss plxxxx! Don't worry, I'll blog bout itsssss :)
happy birthday guuuuuhhhhh.
p.s I CANT WAIT TO SEE THE NECKLACE ANTHONY DO MADE FOR MEEEEEEES<3333
I love how he texts me and ask if i'm wearing floral. :D
Oh yeah funny thing happend, i was looking at M's myspace pics and i told her that guy in the black was cute. She responds by saying
" yeah thats my bestfriend, he has a boyfriend"
^ HAHAHAHAHA !! ... love my life. :)
I'm done blogging for today I'll probably eat strawberries & watch late night television until i snooze. :)
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
before i sleep
And it seems too hard to bear"
(9:59:35 PM)
^i know i say you should tone down your complex mind,
but honestly, dont listen to me. youre too bold for simplicity,
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Lately;
its been awhile crocodile.
I didn't title this blog before i wrote because i dont even know what i intend to write about. Let me start out by saying, these days are going by sooo slowly, and oddly enough i still wish there to be more hours in the day. Maybe its because everytime i realize theres things to be done its too late. I remember on Saturday how everyone was really sad.And then i noticed the weather was soooo gloomy that day too, and it made me think, Maybe the weather doesn't like being gloomy. I mean i guess its not its fault the clouds got a little dirty and turned gray, and maybe the sun had a rough day and just needs some time to get its shine back. Thats why i told myself i wouldn't wish it away the next time it came along, cause i did miss it that one tuesday when the weather was as clear as my window after my mom sprays it with windex.I guess i didnt mind it was gloomy, since it was kind of like, i wasn't the only one.
" the rain won't last forever And you know the storm won't always flow But if the sun don't shine forever You gotta let it go."
Seroiously, i keep hearing neyo everywhere i go! The OC must love his voice all up and down the coast. Cause I've heard " Mad " so many times its making me mad ! Oh well at least he didn't beat up Rihannaaaaa.
^^ HAHAHA NEYO'S RIDICULOUS...
I've gotta admit, i've got this thing for things that are floral. :)
Anthony Do is getting sick of seeing me wear floral ,
and laura says she sees me wear it at least once a week.
i mean now that i think about it, maybe thats why i love spring so much.
^^i could rock that :)
My dreams aren't like what they use to be. I was just thinking about it and they've all been really random lately, not like before, when it was basically the same dreams but different versions. Or maybe they were really different but they all just meant the same to me. Either way, maybe its because i dont know where i'm at and its reflecting in these dreams. But honestly i think its just cause i dont know where my paulfrank pajamas are at, and those give me the besttttt dreams :).
I always did prefer daydreams, over reality.
& everything keeps happening, in the most peculiar way.
I havent blogged for awhile. And i could write more but I'm just soooo tired,
I think I'm going to sleep soon, lets see what i'll dream about tonight.
I've got a lot of questions, maybe i'll find the answer in my dreams.
bloggggg yaa laterrrrrrrrrr :)
* honestly, i haven't updated my myyspace in a whileeee, i think blogging has replaced myspace! heh heh heh . i mean, if i'm going to say stuff here, what more could i possibly be able to say on myspace? LOls... :)
I didn't title this blog before i wrote because i dont even know what i intend to write about. Let me start out by saying, these days are going by sooo slowly, and oddly enough i still wish there to be more hours in the day. Maybe its because everytime i realize theres things to be done its too late. I remember on Saturday how everyone was really sad.And then i noticed the weather was soooo gloomy that day too, and it made me think, Maybe the weather doesn't like being gloomy. I mean i guess its not its fault the clouds got a little dirty and turned gray, and maybe the sun had a rough day and just needs some time to get its shine back. Thats why i told myself i wouldn't wish it away the next time it came along, cause i did miss it that one tuesday when the weather was as clear as my window after my mom sprays it with windex.I guess i didnt mind it was gloomy, since it was kind of like, i wasn't the only one.
" the rain won't last forever And you know the storm won't always flow But if the sun don't shine forever You gotta let it go."
Seroiously, i keep hearing neyo everywhere i go! The OC must love his voice all up and down the coast. Cause I've heard " Mad " so many times its making me mad ! Oh well at least he didn't beat up Rihannaaaaa.
^^ HAHAHA NEYO'S RIDICULOUS...
I've gotta admit, i've got this thing for things that are floral. :)
Anthony Do is getting sick of seeing me wear floral ,
and laura says she sees me wear it at least once a week.
i mean now that i think about it, maybe thats why i love spring so much.
^^i could rock that :)
My dreams aren't like what they use to be. I was just thinking about it and they've all been really random lately, not like before, when it was basically the same dreams but different versions. Or maybe they were really different but they all just meant the same to me. Either way, maybe its because i dont know where i'm at and its reflecting in these dreams. But honestly i think its just cause i dont know where my paulfrank pajamas are at, and those give me the besttttt dreams :).
I always did prefer daydreams, over reality.
& everything keeps happening, in the most peculiar way.
I havent blogged for awhile. And i could write more but I'm just soooo tired,
I think I'm going to sleep soon, lets see what i'll dream about tonight.
I've got a lot of questions, maybe i'll find the answer in my dreams.
bloggggg yaa laterrrrrrrrrr :)
* honestly, i haven't updated my myyspace in a whileeee, i think blogging has replaced myspace! heh heh heh . i mean, if i'm going to say stuff here, what more could i possibly be able to say on myspace? LOls... :)
Friday, March 20, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
these thursday thoughts
Words left unspoken,
somethings gotta be said.
Actions speak louder than words
so maybe everythings already been said.
" Everybody knows, But nobody really knows."
somethings gotta be said.
Actions speak louder than words
so maybe everythings already been said.
" Everybody knows, But nobody really knows."
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
things to jot down
I just woke up from a nap and i hope it doesnt screw me over. This weekend has been really mellow and i think its what i needed cause lately everythings just been too much.I didnt have much of an appetiite and the sleep deprivivation has been dragging on for the longest time.I'm not sure whats next but i hope the storms over, cause ive run out of dry clothes! Yesterdays a blur which tends to happen a lot, i dont remember a lot. maybe i'm too focussed on the present when itis the present to ever come back to the past, If youd even consider yesterday the past.Or maybe its cause its the samething everyday and now it just all blurrs together. if thats the case i'd like to have at least a week of justnothing blending together, and a clear division of each day just to signify my adventures. Maybe that is the case,cause i seem to be thinking about the same things over and over again.
It's sunday, and like every sunday i read secrets.
This is my favorite secret from this week !
talking about "secrets" it reminds me of that really cute poem this really cute poem :
You can't order a poem like you order a taco.
Walk up to the counter, say, "I'll take two"
and expect it to be handed back to youon a shiny plate.
Still, I like your spirit.Anyone who says,
"Here's my address,write me a poem," deserves something in reply.
So I'll tell you a secret instead:poems hide.
In the bottoms of our shoes,they are sleeping.
They are the shadowsdrifting across our ceilings the momentbefore we wake up.
What we have to dois live in a way that lets us find them.
Once I knew a man who gave his wifetwo skunks for a valentine.
He couldn't understand why she was crying.
"I thought they had such beautiful eyes."
And he was serious. He was a serious manwho lived in a serious way.
Nothing was uglyjust because the world said so. He reallyliked those skunks.
So, he re-invented themas valentines and they became beautiful.At least, to him.
And the poems that had been hidingin the eyes of skunks for centuriescrawled out and curled up at his feet.
Maybe if we re-invent whatever our lives give uswe find poems.
Check your garage, the odd sockin your drawer, the person you almost like, but not quite.
And let me know.
Perhaps my favorite poem, to accompany my favorite secret.
I was roaming around the web and ventured into urbandictionary. this is what i found!
^^Its so relevant to my life cause seriously bitches dont waste my minutes! :)
Jotting down things that come to mind :
1) Anthony Do : YOURE A FREAKEN EXTREME BLOGGer!!! i laaaaavs it :).
Keep up the plaid it works for you >:], i'm so excited about the braclete you got me !! keep following the yellow brick road and ask the wizzardto give YOU a favorite color. :), or maybe walk down aisle 6 of walmart to the crayola, idk your choice.
2) Michelle Pham : can't believe youre on lockdown ! Never forget about karma beeeeeeeeeotch ! p.s i still love that pciture of us and I WILL develope it for 15 cents @ target :)
3) Victoria Kesoma Do : i love you & your support, btw. i loved that we matched HAHAH ! & i envy your hair + mind! :)
4) Tracy Phan : Everytime i think of you i think of that moment when we were partying it up @ your house ( eating chips & dip ).+ when you told us the story of you in kindergarden + fathers day i swear i imagined you as a korean drama it was so cool... :) <333
- i regret doing this because once you name one you have to name them all...
& i jsut cant do that right now, so i think every blog i'll just add a couple more people ! :) Stay tuned to see if youre on it !
can i just ramble...
I went to the 99 cent store, it was very embarassing. I looked like a homeless figuring who the hell would i need to look good for turns out i should NEVER think that way again !
These weekend movies are so great, i enjoy finding new loves of things when i can !
what's with all these letdowns, I'm preparing for the downfall. Maybe its already occured,
and the bottom is just as dark as the top
I just ate a gross mango. it tasted like it was rolled in sour patches omg...
I found my paulfrank pajama bottoms. i always get good dreams when i wear them, :)
i think something bit me....
I'm kind of broken,
i need my fix.
Looks like its going to be another long night.
I'm drinking juice again, and life is still as sweet.
I'm always drinking juice, i wish life was ALWAYS this sweet.
CONGRATULATIONS philip on winning the Franco Shade !
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROAPm-aTqCo
Dear World, i burned my first batch of cupcakes, please don't notice.
fuck.... because i went back to my room it write this ^
i burned the SECOND batch too... dont notice that either!
WHERE ARE YOU LAURA :(
I hope i'll find the answer in my dreams.
It's sunday, and like every sunday i read secrets. This is my favorite secret from this week !
talking about "secrets" it reminds me of that really cute poem this really cute poem :
You can't order a poem like you order a taco.
Walk up to the counter, say, "I'll take two"
and expect it to be handed back to youon a shiny plate.
Still, I like your spirit.Anyone who says,
"Here's my address,write me a poem," deserves something in reply.
So I'll tell you a secret instead:poems hide.
In the bottoms of our shoes,they are sleeping.
They are the shadowsdrifting across our ceilings the momentbefore we wake up.
What we have to dois live in a way that lets us find them.
Once I knew a man who gave his wifetwo skunks for a valentine.
He couldn't understand why she was crying.
"I thought they had such beautiful eyes."
And he was serious. He was a serious manwho lived in a serious way.
Nothing was uglyjust because the world said so. He reallyliked those skunks.
So, he re-invented themas valentines and they became beautiful.At least, to him.
And the poems that had been hidingin the eyes of skunks for centuriescrawled out and curled up at his feet.
Maybe if we re-invent whatever our lives give uswe find poems.
Check your garage, the odd sockin your drawer, the person you almost like, but not quite.
And let me know.
Perhaps my favorite poem, to accompany my favorite secret.
I was roaming around the web and ventured into urbandictionary. this is what i found!^^Its so relevant to my life cause seriously bitches dont waste my minutes! :)
Jotting down things that come to mind :
1) Anthony Do : YOURE A FREAKEN EXTREME BLOGGer!!! i laaaaavs it :).
Keep up the plaid it works for you >:], i'm so excited about the braclete you got me !! keep following the yellow brick road and ask the wizzardto give YOU a favorite color. :), or maybe walk down aisle 6 of walmart to the crayola, idk your choice.
2) Michelle Pham : can't believe youre on lockdown ! Never forget about karma beeeeeeeeeotch ! p.s i still love that pciture of us and I WILL develope it for 15 cents @ target :)
3) Victoria Kesoma Do : i love you & your support, btw. i loved that we matched HAHAH ! & i envy your hair + mind! :)
4) Tracy Phan : Everytime i think of you i think of that moment when we were partying it up @ your house ( eating chips & dip ).+ when you told us the story of you in kindergarden + fathers day i swear i imagined you as a korean drama it was so cool... :) <333
- i regret doing this because once you name one you have to name them all...
& i jsut cant do that right now, so i think every blog i'll just add a couple more people ! :) Stay tuned to see if youre on it !
can i just ramble...
I went to the 99 cent store, it was very embarassing. I looked like a homeless figuring who the hell would i need to look good for turns out i should NEVER think that way again !
These weekend movies are so great, i enjoy finding new loves of things when i can !
what's with all these letdowns, I'm preparing for the downfall. Maybe its already occured,
and the bottom is just as dark as the top
I just ate a gross mango. it tasted like it was rolled in sour patches omg...
I found my paulfrank pajama bottoms. i always get good dreams when i wear them, :)
i think something bit me....
I'm kind of broken,
i need my fix.
Looks like its going to be another long night.
I'm drinking juice again, and life is still as sweet.
I'm always drinking juice, i wish life was ALWAYS this sweet.
CONGRATULATIONS philip on winning the Franco Shade !
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROAPm-aTqCo
Dear World, i burned my first batch of cupcakes, please don't notice.
fuck.... because i went back to my room it write this ^
i burned the SECOND batch too... dont notice that either!
WHERE ARE YOU LAURA :(
I hope i'll find the answer in my dreams.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
nodays like fridays
**This blog is posted on saturday, but written on friday for the simple fact that i fell asleep accidently, the laptop still on my bed im surprised i didnt knock it over, however because it was on my bed, i slept in an extremely weird angle and woke up with a dead arm. :(
I'm tired, in more ways then one,
a
nd i'm so tired of being tired.
Fi
but i have found myself to love writing, writing in ketchup.
Maybe I'd like essays if i wrote with cajun fries with the secret sauce on the side.
Things i found appealing in Target. :) 
^ BEASTLY RESEMBLENCE DONT YOU THIN
Honestly, if i could live anywhere I'd live in Target. And I'd want my neighbor to be Costco. I mean i already take naps in there sometimes :). A. Do says we should go on more adventures next week, i agree i mean we could own all of little bolsa if we wanted too ! :D Too bad Michelle's on LOCKDOWN. latesssss Akon, goodluck.
" Nina, you rock that "
BACKTRACK to Thursday.
I
You were great, I'm proud of you. Even though you were looking in the wrong direction of me, I bet you were picturing me there! HAHA. :) It was worth the run, next time I'll be front row.I'm your biggest fan thats wasssup,Especially since you let me calculate with your calculator :].
On a different note, seriously to Laura, I appreciate you more then most You dont even know Trust, I'll be on call 24/7 for yo assssss<33333333333
Rewind, cause i cant make up my mind.
I'm getting tired of waiting wondering when youre coming around.
" Didn't you want to hear the sound of all the places we could go Do you fear the expressions on the faces we don't know It's a cold hard road when you wake up and do i have the strength to let you go ."
I know myself well enough to say its now or never.
I dont want to waste my days just thinking of you.Sometimes i find myself at a lost for words, but the thoughts so clear i could paint a picture.
I wish for the whole truth everytime you speak and i'm thinking about how you care half as much for me, i guess it doesnt matter what i say or what i seem you stuck what i felt for you in the pocket of your jeans.
----
I miss going to the movies, and saying long goodbyes,
My rooms so cold.I'd turn on the heater but it makes scary sounds.
I'm drinking juice & lifes just as sweet.
I'm extremely fond of documenting my life, with whole hearted words, and snap shot images.
I've thought about if i should even share the things i think.doubt yes, things to hide no.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
after thought
I never run out of things to say, maybe thats why I'm blogging some more! i wasn't going to but then anthony was like "thats what extreme bloggers do" & trust me, i like to be Xtreme. :) So here goes my afterthought.
Its one of those legit moments, youre not replaceable.
Maybe its katy pery thats making me feel it, or maybe its just me.
But trust me when i say, i could live without you, Life would just be easier with you.
wish we could rewind, i bet we'd intertwine, i really love to rhyme LOL!.
Cause life really is a maze and love is a riddle.
" like a hard candy with a surprise center. "
Sometimes i wish there was more hours in the day, but in the end i think it would still end up the same.Daylight savings is a serious pain in the a$$. im tired of these morning chills that wake me up.I want to blog more fun stuff but its 11 something and my eyes are about to be grizzly bears and hibernate. I'd like you to know eating Mango's make my throat itchy. I always thought kiwis would be the ones but really the mangos are the beastliest, peeps dont be fooled on the realzzzzz :]. I'm sad to say, i still eat them anyways. [ the rhyming thing again ] >:]
<33laaaaaaavs; victoriakesomado michelleissexypham laura nguyen mnmk +++ summmm. :)
p.s CONGRATULATIONS LAURA FOR WINNING THE THINGGGG im so proud jigggaaaa !
I feel like i can't wait for tomorrow, but I wouldn't mind if it never comes.
Its one of those legit moments, youre not replaceable.
Maybe its katy pery thats making me feel it, or maybe its just me.
But trust me when i say, i could live without you, Life would just be easier with you.
wish we could rewind, i bet we'd intertwine, i really love to rhyme LOL!.
Cause life really is a maze and love is a riddle.
" like a hard candy with a surprise center. "
Sometimes i wish there was more hours in the day, but in the end i think it would still end up the same.Daylight savings is a serious pain in the a$$. im tired of these morning chills that wake me up.I want to blog more fun stuff but its 11 something and my eyes are about to be grizzly bears and hibernate. I'd like you to know eating Mango's make my throat itchy. I always thought kiwis would be the ones but really the mangos are the beastliest, peeps dont be fooled on the realzzzzz :]. I'm sad to say, i still eat them anyways. [ the rhyming thing again ] >:]
<33laaaaaaavs; victoriakesomado michelleissexypham laura nguyen mnmk +++ summmm. :)
p.s CONGRATULATIONS LAURA FOR WINNING THE THINGGGG im so proud jigggaaaa !
I feel like i can't wait for tomorrow, but I wouldn't mind if it never comes.
Wednesday?
I use to think blogging was stupid, but for some reason my mind has been swayed! Maybe its my lack of expressiveness now a days that i find the need to go express it here.
But mostly i think it is to tell the world about how EVIL MRS. JANIEC IS !!! Today i recieved a refereal, the first referal in my wholeeeee 6 months of high school life ! and dissapointed to say it isnt for a street cred reason like beating the shizzz outta anyone but because get this peeps i ate a stupid CRACKER IN CLASS. not even a whole cracker i ate half of it and she went ape shit on me. whatever. The counselors dont see the ridiculousness in this but i think it is outrageous ! im so close to calling TMZ and having them confront her and her power usage. I admit there is a rule against " no eating " but i seirously dont consider eating half a cracker eating barely snacking. And one day i hope she looks around and notices everyone eating full course meals around her! This isnt over Janiec, i did not learn my lesson if anything you merely encouraged me to eat a piece of bread next time.
I had a conversation with Emily today, and it just proved to me that she is truely my number 1 top notch chick ! " If they be hatin on you, you tell them to messege me ! " LOL! :) I'm pretty sad about how she goes to pacifica but the distance is making my heart grow fonder for her!Sometimes we lose touch but i think the fact that when we do take the time to talk its like we never stopped just shows how much we do love eachother! <3333333333 BFF forreals.
"Are you mine, cause i think about it all the time. "
I'm really addicted to mary's lily allen myspace song. +++ victorias too! I was reading Shell's blog and i can so relate with her, shes kind of why i made this blog too but once again MOSTLY TO SHARE MY HATE OF JANIEC. anywho... :)
For all the times i don't think of you, the times where i miss you it is truely whole heartedly and not half ass, which is sooo the legit kind of miss where only if it was only for a couple minutes it makes up for the whole day of unacknoledement. < i could never spell... My heads battling with my heart and the logic has been torn apart. Sometimes i wish you would be the structure of my thoughts but since its not there i really have nothing to go on... Its like trying to find waldo which gives me a headache and you dont even wear stripped shirts... Idk, i know alot of people judge us and at first i did care because i take it personally when ppl get in my life. But then i talked to samiya (okay i cant spell her name but the girl i talk to in geometry) and she gave this clear image of how she lived her life in a so "IDGAF what people think about me," kind of way, which i do live my life that way but not to the extreme. i suppose i am pretty sensitive but then again this load of stress on these small shoulders of mine are a big contribution to my many mood swings nowadays plus im on my period , DONT JUDGE :). I dont know how this is going, i guess in the end maybe im waldo, and i just have to focus on finding myself first. One day, you should meet me half way.
I dont know why i wrote so much for my first blog, but then again i talk a lot, im not surprised. :)
p.s I'm excited to go to MarchMadness "with" you, I wish my hair was red. :)
But mostly i think it is to tell the world about how EVIL MRS. JANIEC IS !!! Today i recieved a refereal, the first referal in my wholeeeee 6 months of high school life ! and dissapointed to say it isnt for a street cred reason like beating the shizzz outta anyone but because get this peeps i ate a stupid CRACKER IN CLASS. not even a whole cracker i ate half of it and she went ape shit on me. whatever. The counselors dont see the ridiculousness in this but i think it is outrageous ! im so close to calling TMZ and having them confront her and her power usage. I admit there is a rule against " no eating " but i seirously dont consider eating half a cracker eating barely snacking. And one day i hope she looks around and notices everyone eating full course meals around her! This isnt over Janiec, i did not learn my lesson if anything you merely encouraged me to eat a piece of bread next time.
I had a conversation with Emily today, and it just proved to me that she is truely my number 1 top notch chick ! " If they be hatin on you, you tell them to messege me ! " LOL! :) I'm pretty sad about how she goes to pacifica but the distance is making my heart grow fonder for her!Sometimes we lose touch but i think the fact that when we do take the time to talk its like we never stopped just shows how much we do love eachother! <3333333333 BFF forreals.
"Are you mine, cause i think about it all the time. "
I'm really addicted to mary's lily allen myspace song. +++ victorias too! I was reading Shell's blog and i can so relate with her, shes kind of why i made this blog too but once again MOSTLY TO SHARE MY HATE OF JANIEC. anywho... :)
For all the times i don't think of you, the times where i miss you it is truely whole heartedly and not half ass, which is sooo the legit kind of miss where only if it was only for a couple minutes it makes up for the whole day of unacknoledement. < i could never spell... My heads battling with my heart and the logic has been torn apart. Sometimes i wish you would be the structure of my thoughts but since its not there i really have nothing to go on... Its like trying to find waldo which gives me a headache and you dont even wear stripped shirts... Idk, i know alot of people judge us and at first i did care because i take it personally when ppl get in my life. But then i talked to samiya (okay i cant spell her name but the girl i talk to in geometry) and she gave this clear image of how she lived her life in a so "IDGAF what people think about me," kind of way, which i do live my life that way but not to the extreme. i suppose i am pretty sensitive but then again this load of stress on these small shoulders of mine are a big contribution to my many mood swings nowadays plus im on my period , DONT JUDGE :). I dont know how this is going, i guess in the end maybe im waldo, and i just have to focus on finding myself first. One day, you should meet me half way.
I dont know why i wrote so much for my first blog, but then again i talk a lot, im not surprised. :)
p.s I'm excited to go to MarchMadness "with" you, I wish my hair was red. :)
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